Last night I reached a milestone in my dream state. Interdimensional travel driven by will and focused imagination. I spent more time in that other world than was passing here on Earth as my body rested. I co-sleep with my 2-year-young son. He stirred and woke me 4 times and every time I would say to the other beings around me, "oh no I'm going... I'll be back!" I would fade from the other dimension and return to my body in bed. For a few moments I would see the most amazing ultraviolet geometric patterns instead of the usual dark backs of my eyelids. Without opening my eyes I would will myself back and instantly return to that other world again.
In the beginning of my first visit I realized right away what was occurring. I looked at my right hand and saw that though it was formed it was changing. My fingers and thumb would take turns shrinking in and out of the hand. "Whoa, I'm tripping out," I exclaimed. I discovered that earth's rules did not apply on this planet. I was determined to explore the possibilities.
I discovered how to levitate. I was lopsided though, so I focused on all of the particles of my being to vibrate and levitate together, balanced, and in harmony. Soon I was able to float and fly at a medium speed; about as quickly as one would power walk or jog. I was invigorated with joy and wonder, and at one point I began to sing in my conversation with the other beings. I wondered that surely some of the words I spoke would be heard by my husband or child who were sleeping beside me in our bed. "How great that would be!" I thought.
The landscape was awe-inspiring. Sparkling sun-kissed greens, lush tropics stretching father than I could comprehend. The scattered buildings were either close to the ground or narrow towers, one distant bridge near a cascading waterfall; all of the structures were minimalistic accessories to the natural beauty surrounding. The air was clear and the other beings were vibrant, radiating with a pure glow from within. One message I recall was that they are reaching out to make a connection with those who are ready, to bring awareness of the merging of our worlds which is coming.
I am nervous opening up and sharing this information yet I trust it will reach the people who it is meant for in whatever capacity it will assist them. My intention is to open up about my experiences so that others may have the courage to do the same. I believe everyone receives necessary clues to discover their own personal truth, always at the level of their awareness at that particular moment in life. I have been blessed with much knowledge from an early age and with such heightened awareness comes a responsibility to speak about it to those who choose to listen.
For those of you who don't already know this about me, I had a near death experience when I was a teenager. I got hypothermia, began to drown, left my body, experienced my past present and future, then a familiar white light beckoned me. I focused all of my will, intention, and imagination on returning to my 14-year-young body in the lake so as to live out and fulfill that future vision of myself with a husband and child. My request was granted, and I have lived beyond that vision now.
Following my NDE I explored with heightened curiosity topics like Astral projection, Wiccan religion, and uncovering my past lives. Back then I actually accumulated the perfect guide books from a Hot Topic at the Thousand Oaks Mall. I was able to uncover two of my past lives on my own. I also played a game of astral travel with my first love since my mother forbid me from seeing him.
My nightmares became extremely vivid. When pain was inflicted upon me in my dream it would carry into my waking reality for minutes. Before the NDE I always sensed that spirits were attempting to get my attention because they sensed that I was aware of them. The difference was now they were able to surface in various ways since I had lifted the veil. It was as if I had developed a 7th sense.
One late So-Cal afternoon while the sun was slowly setting, I stayed home alone while my family stepped out for a few hours. In my peripheral vision I picked up on a slight movement by the door to my room. As I looked up I was immediately frozen from fear. My bedroom door which I left cracked open, was opening ever so slowly. I witnessed in horror as a dark smoke crept in and made its way towards me. It moved as if it traveled through liquid, not air.
Now I used to love scary movies from the age of four, and no cinematographer could come close to reenacting that scene back then. I simply dropped to the ground in total surrender, and I immediately assumed a fetal position. I have no recollection of time as I bawled on the floor begging not to be taken. The only thing that shook me from this trance was when I heard sounds of my family reentering the house. I took two quick looks around and fled out of my room and downstairs to my parents. Shortly afterward I joined a Christian youth group, and a Christian Club, both on and off-campus. I even started going to Sunday Service at a Catholic church with other teens in my neighborhood. The dark smoke thing never returned.
My mother was so obsessed with me being proper that teenage life in my household was painful. I had a pure heart full of love and light, and I felt I had no one to turn to with my bigger picture questions and concerns. During times when my teenage emotional state was most unstable I would begin to hear these foreign personalities speaking to me. I would feel as if I could just give up, and then suddenly I was no longer in control; someone else WAS puppeteer. I remember there was a man and there was a little girl. One of these personalities would eject me and it was as if I were hovering just above and to the side of my body. I would witness a scene playing out through a fisheye lense with someone else directing my body. It was as if my mind was a computer and it had just been hacked into. It freaked me out.
It wasn't until I was in my mid twenties that I was able to somehow successfully block those entities from gaining access to me during times of extreme emotional stress. I spent years seeking ways to protect my sacred vessel. Blocking these things unfortunately prevented a lot of other good things from coming in or going out as well. For many years a big challenge of mine was having to compensate for the compartmentalization of some of my authentic gifts. Which brings me back to last night being a real milestone.
I've finally reached a stage where I've managed to remove some of the spirit filters that are in place and reconnect with more of my true essence every time I mediate with the lamp. The group sacred light journeys coordinated by Richard and Sian, when in combination with my sacred geometry pendant in my daily intuition and intention practices, has exponentially served me on my path toward fulfilment of my highest purpose in this lifetime.
However things play out in my end and the end I know my truth and will always act from love with the wisdom of my higher self to help me navigate each turn of events. I won't die until my death serves the big picture, and for this reason I am comforted. Some day I will be gone. No big deal really. A transition that will be celebrated by those who really get me. Life-death-life.
My current real life struggle is with urgency to be the best version of me 100% off the time and to remain present. I may or may not return to a human form after this life ends. Either way humanity does not need to remember me. Mastering my energy, raising my vibrations, is all I can work on and hopefully inspire others to do the same. That is the only thing which will carry on. Assuming that this planet survives in its current state for at least another seven generations, would you really want your many times great grand children stacking their futuristic homes with any number of the silly things we value and accumulate these days? I am in a perpetual state of decluttering as I work on becoming a minimalist myself. Shifting old perspectives as I explore and question how my life could be with a minimal amount of functional items to be responsible for.
I will do my best and perhaps seek out more ways which will successfully amplify my authentic gifts with the world. Small scale or large scale it all makes a difference. The challenges I accept and the wisdom I acquire can have a positive effect on this planet. If I start with me first I will demonstrate that it is possible for others to do the same for themselves. Someone is always watching. Let them, love them, they are playing out their role in the big picture too. Be mindful, be respectful, and be aware. Seek to surround yourself with people who wake you up to the wonder of life again.
I am fortunate to have a handy guy like my husband around. When I met him he was a dedicated personal trainer. Now, he is one of the most caring wizards. I knew I was marrying someone more special than either one of us was aware of at the time. He keeps the forces of distraction and darkness in balance with the light work we do. Send him love in your thoughts when you think of him. He takes on a lot all by himself. Without him I would be only partially aware of my purpose, and surely I would still be waiting to find meaning and create value from it all.